this is the first christmas
we spend without you

nothing seems to have changed
except for one detail

we keep celebrating
just like when you were here

we don’t talk about it
no tears fit this joyous season

but we all know
each of us think of you

and we all have
the same thought in our mind

from now on
every event will be the first time without you

and every time

we wish you were still with us

“i’d tell you how much i’ve loved you
if only you could wake up again

farewell came so bluntly
and you went swiftly to your eternal sleep

i feel your presence all over the place
though you have flown away from my heart

dumstruck with the sense of weight
you have left in my mind

if you could wake up again
i would embrace
every moment
of our lives”

————————
18/oct/2011

you are the map of our life
thank you for always being there
whenever we need you

you are the map of our life
thank you for showing
different paths we can take

you are the map of our life
thank you for guiding us
when we get lost in the dark

you are the map of our life
thank you for letting us
choose our own way to proceed

our journey will continue
and you will always be in our heart
because you are
the map of our life

an evil in me
　　　awaken by a sudden touch
　　　unexpected and uninvited
　　　something has shaken
an evil in me
　　　with a rage unable to resist
　　　unpredictable and inescapable
　　　something has flamed
an evil in me
　　　with a pain so hard to heal
　　　underestimated and overlooked
　　　words, gesture, silence
　　　absolutely nothing can tame
an evil in me

”幸せにする自信がないんだ”
そう言って
去って行った人
何度も、長い間、
どこがいけなかったのかと
自分を責めた
……………..

ある日、ある時、
”幸せにしたいんだ”
そんな人に
出会った

　　　　　　　　　　　　　2009年1月1日

(translation)

he left saying
”not sure if i can make you happy”

many times, for a long time,
i blamed myself
wondering what i had done wrong

……………..

one day, one time,
met a man
who said

“i want to make you happy”

1/1/2009

stunned
with your unexpected words
flown from your heart
not sure why
you told me so

captured
with your sincere gaze
flown out of your heart
not sure why
you did it so

time
gave us a perspective
that now
we can be friends

embrace
we go separate ways
feeling the warmth
flown into our hearts

don’t live in a constant fear
but embrace the moment
said he

don’t let the past hold you back
but grasp what you have now
said he

don’t get trapped with the future that has not taken place
but live your life at present
said he

waste no time
life is too short
cherish it

our life, our soul, our love
no fear would do you good

live it
said he